What Concerns Me, Concerns God; And What Concerns God, Concerns Me.

I don’t know about you, but I appreciate the times I get to drive by myself. Because it gives me alone time with Jesus, to pray, to hear Him speak to my heart; I really cherish these moments.

Yesterday, I had a meeting that was thirty minutes from the house. So, I used this quiet and alone time to talk with God, to pray to Jesus, and thank the Holy Spirit for moving on my behalf, and on the behalf of my children. I was strengthened with each minute, more and more. I was encouraged because I spoke the word of God in Jesus name and thanked the Holy Spirit for turning things around, for moving things around, for orchestrating a series of events, as my pastor would say, to fulfill God’s will.

By the way, the meeting went great!

I left, headed on the highway, and traffic was moving slow. I noticed the coolant dial was quickly rising to hot. To me it was fast. For a second, I thought, I hope this car doesn’t start smoking. My heartrate increased, and I said to myself- Oh No!
I grabbed my phone, to call my son. Because I remember a few days prior, out of the blue he asked me the last time I had a tune-up. “The car has never been tuned up” I replied. So, I thought about his timely words and wanted to call him. Maybe he could direct me on what to do in the meantime.

But right when I picked up the phone, the Holy Spirit said “Pray.” And I did. I spoke out loud: “Bring it down, Holy Spirit; bring it down, Holy Spirit; bring it down, Holy Spirit.” And the gauge quickly came down.

At the same rate it went up, was the same rate it came down.

What had just happened, called me to pray for another thirty minutes. I was reminded of the power of God. Some would conclude it as a coincidence; I conclude, it was a work, a sign, a move- a blessing from God!

As a result, I had new thoughts. For instance, it was a reminder that my concerns are God’s concerns. I meditated on that word, concern. How this word concern is similar to the word passion. It was like I was having a thought exchange with God, asking and revealing the difference between concern and passion. On that ride home, I voiced all the things in life that concern me. For some reason, it was easier for me to navigate internally, my concerns, versus what am I passionate about. If you asked me, “What is your passion?” I sometimes struggled with the answer because I wasn’t sure of its definition. I’ve heard others define passion as that thing that keeps you up at night. You go to bed thinking about it, you wake up thinking about it. Nothing really moved me like that, except for God. So, I conclude that my passion in life is God! Meaning, all things pertaining to God. And my concerns, well there are many…

I am concerned about preserving the beauty, awe and wonder of our planet. It saddens me when I see oil rigs in the ocean because I know what they’re doing- disrupting the ocean floor and penetrating a part of our planet that needs to be untouched. I drive a car that requires gas. However, at that moment, I declared that when I receive more than enough money, I will purchase a solar generated car.

All the litter I see on the roadways and highways in St. Louis are disturbing. Its more than a sore sight to see, its disrespectful to the land we live on. So, once I got home, I googled all I could find about the litter laws and who to contact. I proposed a new idea and I am confident, the Holy Spirit will make some things happen and change will occur.
Child molestation concerns me. Prevention is necessary and teaching is key. As they say, knowledge is power so I will be praying about that platform.

Single parenting, past wounds, generational curses, exposing societal and familial lies- all concern me. I will be praying about that platform as well.

Diabetes and diet concern me. More research needs to be done on the effectiveness of low carb diets in the treatment of diabetes. Low carb changed my life. And no doctor pointed me in that direction, I had to find out for myself. On the ADA (American Diabetes Association) website, they have a section for “Superfoods”: beans, fruits, sweet potatoes and whole grains. In my experience as a diabetic for thirty years, and a nurse for fifteen- these foods are not superfoods for a diabetic; they’re harmful because they raise blood glucose and require more insulin. Along with other community members, I plan on meeting with House Representative Ann Wagner, sometime in August, to discuss this concern.

In addition, I was reminded of something important out of this experience- to speak what I need and desire.

Because what concerns me, concerns God; and what concerns God, concerns me.

All in all, if that gauge never rose to hot, I wouldn’t have prayed and talked to God like I did. HE used that as an opportunity to teach me some things, to remind me of the power of prayer, to show HE is always there for me! And now I’m sharing with you.

All glory to God! Let us Bless His Holy Name!

The eyes are made to see

We get what we came for-
*Matthew 6:22 “The lamp of the body is the eye. If therefore your eye is good, your whole body will be full of light.”

*A quote by Thomas Manton, “Your eyes are the guardians of your heart.”

*2 Corinthians 11:14 “And no wonder! For Satan himself transforms himself into an angel of light.”

You ever watch a horror movie and afterwards scared out of your wits, because you believed some evil force was out to get you? As an adult, you even slept with the lights on?

The word supernatural is used for good or evil. The good has the intention of blessing you in a mighty way. For instance, many prayers include the words, “May God give you supernatural insight and wisdom to see through the devil’s lies.” Then the evil has the intent of producing fear, doubt or guilt. For example, supernatural films, closely linked to paranormal, have themes of ghosts, demons, spirits…used to frighten those who watch it.

But what do we expect when we watch movies like that? The movie is intended to make us scared. And they do this in honesty. Meaning they tell us the truth about what type of movie it is, so we know its intentions before we watch it. That’s why they’re called horror and thriller. You want drama, then watch drama. You want suspense, watch suspense. You want humor, then watch comedy. You want romance, then watch romance. Certainly, you will get what you came for.

I’m always taking inventory of what I watch. Especially when my enthusiasm for purpose is dull. Because, what I see transfers information to my heart and mind. It gets downloaded there, transcribed there and ultimately gets saved to hard drive (my soul).

I have to be mindful of what I watch. Not only for my sake, but for my children. Because what I see and perceive will always affect those around me. I watched Game 3 of NBA finals last night. And I was hyped. My daughter said, “Wow mom, you must really love this game.” I’m one of those people that only watch the finals in any sport. Nonetheless, I was in awe of Steph Curry. His team-mates, Kevin Durant and Klay Thompson were out injured so the outcome relied heavily on Curry’s actions; how well he can play the game. He had the weight of Game 3 on his shoulders. His love for the game of basketball was inspiring. Just when I thought he was physically tired, he would fight to gain possession of that ball. What I was watching, impacted my mood and behavior so much, that my daughter noticed.
Today, I make the commitment to guard what I see and what my children see.

I AM my own best friend.

I’m sure the rapper Ice Cube was referring his song: “Check Yourself Before You Wreck Yourself” in a different manner than what was revealed to me.  Nonetheless, this song title says what I know to be true.  I have to check my inside voice because she’s here to wreck havoc- she’s vile!  And dangerous.  And she kills confidence and dreams.  She disparages very hope I wish to have.  She’s uneducated- because she only has one train of thought.  She’s obnoxious and intrusive.  And she was apart of me.

I wondered why the advice I tell others is not the I tell myself.  My council to myself is so mean: “You need to do this.  You should do this.  You gotta be better- better- better…” But my advice to others, even new people I don’t know, is always uplifting and in love: “You can do it.  You’re awesome.  Trust the process.  You’re not perfect, no one is.  Be gentle and kind with yourself.”  It’s always words of hope, founded in the word of God.

I understand, many of the things that happen in my life are to build upon what I already have- it’s character-building at its finest.  God is in the character-building business.  Even though, I understand this process, I’d typically look at opportunities as something I may mess up.  So anxiety is there because perfection is there then I miss the lesson.  The opportunity is there to refine character.  And our inner voice should serve as a moral of support.  To help build something in us, that we usually don’t realize it needs to be built. When people say “Listen to your inner voice” that’s only effective if your inner voice serves you into your best self!

Therefore, it’s time to replace the criticizing voice with the sincere, motivating life coach. It’s time to cast out that disapproving, nitpicking, judgmental, faultfinding, unsympathetic, belittling voice inside.  And welcome the voice of stillness, kindness, gentleness, praising, accepting, love, sympathetic and understanding- my authentic voice!  My voice of innocence and wisdom that makes me faithful and true! 

Affirmation: I AM my own best friend. 20190503_105016_00006181359640949167477.png

 

 

 

 

The Deep Waters

Proverbs 18:4
“The words of the mouth are deep waters, but the fountain of wisdom is a rushing stream.”
Amazingly, the bible also indicates that intentions of the heart are deep waters; as well as words of a man’s mouth. So, we have intentions and words as deep waters.
Which made me dive into (not literally)- what is the meaning of deep waters? In other translations, and also reading about Noah and his situation with the flood, deep waters refers to the ocean (underground water).
This verse continues to strike me for some reason. Why would God refer what comes out of our mouth and the intentions of our heart to an ocean? And then it hit me, like a tide coming in to breathe.
So, journey with me on this…
Deep waters can bring tranquility. There’s nothing more serene than watching the still waters of the ocean. The sound of its constant waves has put millions of people to sleep at night. Shout out to You-tube. Its massiveness illuminates my mind, enhancing its ability to imagine and dream bigger. When I stand in front of an ocean, it’s like I become more alive; and time stops!
Deep waters can bring devastation. One tsunami can wipe out thousands, just like that, without any warning. As we just seen recently in Indonesia; which the death poll has surpassed 1,900 people. Deep waters can be a part of a great flood, wiping out living creatures and homes. They can bring destruction like a hurricane. They can be treacherous and cause death.
Intention is what deciphers the ocean’s movement: whether it will be vengeful or calm. What has your heart’s intention and mouth been moved/conditioned/prepared to do? For instance, an earthquake moves the ocean into a tsunami. Just like heartbreak moves our mouths to speak words of bitterness; which, spills into the lives of others.
I like to challenge us all. To be conscious and consider the value of every word we speak internally and out loud. Are you speaking a tsunami that will destroy others’ dreams, confidence, their hopes…? Is your internal dialogue causing hurricane after hurricane in your own life? And it’s not even hurricane season. Or, are you speaking words of stillness that will calm the restless? That will give hope to the hopeless and wisdom to the understanding?

 

Wisdom is a Process

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The meat for me was verse 10: “The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom.”
Clearly, wisdom begins with the fear of the Lord. Those who don’t fear the Lord, don’t have wisdom. So, what does that look like? What does it mean to fear the Lord?
When I began to allow my mind to wonder on this concept, I compared our connection with God, to one’s connection with their soul-mate. There’s a process involved before we even get to the “fear of the Lord.” And it flows something like this:
1. Earthly: A man and woman who meet, both know they’re soul-mates. How? Their togetherness brings the same feelings as home brings.
Spiritual: Once we recognize that Jesus is calling, we give our attention to that calling. How do we know Jesus is calling? You get a tug that feels like home when your internal being has felt homeless. Next step is communication.
2. Earthly: You engage in conversation, you laugh, you establish a respectful and effective way to communicate. You get to know his/her likes and dislikes.
Spiritual: Prayer and Study. When we pray, we are communicating to God. But when we read our bible, HIS word, that’s God communicating to us. Next is, presence=faithfulness and commitment.
3. Earthly: You go on dates, you spend more time in his/her presence. You show affection by embracing them. You want to show them how much they matter to you. That you are faithful and committed to the relationship despite what your ego and others may say. Your focus is loving him/her unconditionally. And you know that love is a verb- it’s action.
Spiritual: Being in HIS presence through praise and worship. We show our level of commitment by being faithful in attending church. We don’t miss a Sunday because we’re too tired or have a headache. We want to show HIM we’re serious about this relationship. We are devoted to HIS will. Finally, is reverence.
4. Earthly: Trust and Honor. Your nature is submissive. Being submissive is not having a leash around your neck. It’s being flexible to your mate’s change. You’re vulnerable. Yet safe and secure enough to expose deep, personal and intimate things because your heart approves.
Spiritual: Trust and Honor. We’ve been so engaged with God that we know more of HIS secret ways. We see HIM more in ALL living creations. We yield to HIS will because we trust and honor HIM. The Holy Fear comes naturally because of who HE is. It’s not a “I’m scared to mess up because then HE will beat me” type of fear. This fear originates out of respect because of who God is. It’s anchored in hope. It grows by faith. And is fed by love. This here. This right here is the beginning of wisdom.

No Room for Distractions

Her focus is solely on the birth.

For, her instincts whispered: “This one is mighty. It will rock the earth.

Now, be ready- One day is set for painful contractions.

You have no room for distractions.”

She trusted. And for 22 months and not one complaint-

Throughout the land, her peace is maintained.

Not all understand this drive to the extreme;

It’s a vision of love embedded deep- it’s more than a dream.

She is on a mission.

To bring what’s inside of her, to fruition.

By Sheyda Irani