Taking heed to the spiritual abscess

What we take in, is either healthy or unhealthy. Not only does this apply to our physical bodies, but to our spiritual self as well.
IF you ever had an abscess or boil then you know it can be extremely painful. They seem to know the most inconvenient and sensitive area on the body, to attach itself to, and grow until it bursts.
Over the years, I’ve learned to appreciate these boils/abscesses because they serve as a reminder- how good our bodies are designed. IT is the body’s way of saying “Hey you’re taking in something that I consider foreign and toxic, and I don’t like it. So, I’m getting rid of it.”
As a diabetic, I used to consume a lot of sugar. I still injected insulin, but I ate what I wanted, having no restraint and no self-control. I’d get these abscesses in various parts of my body and didn’t know why, until I learned.
We do what we do until we know better- and it’s quite alright. Why? Because our suffering will never go in vain…it’s there to help others, who are going through the same thing.
Consider how these abscesses form in the spiritual realm.
What we consume, all the negativity transferred from tv shows, movies, news, social media and music, places a stronghold of demonic influence over our lives. Really, where else is it going to go?
There’s no way, I can watch horror flicks, movies of violence and drama, listen to music that talks about sex, drugs and money, engage in gossip and complaints with family and friends, read online bullying remarks, listen to the news which is their versions of hate, crime and anguish in the world…and expect a peace of mind and a joy-filled me. IT’s impossible to walk away from all of that with increased faith, hope and love. Trust me, I’ve tried (not one time but numerous times) and it doesn’t work.
All the unwarranted things that I consumed, in turn, manifested into a spirit of heaviness. It’s like a dark cloud that followed me everywhere I went. Everything was a struggle. I felt like there was no fight left in me and defeat started to call me name.
Why?
Because the demonic influence grows into a spiritual abscess, that’s filled with infection. The pain is excruciating because the pressure has built up in a sensitive spot: like the spirit and soul. Yet, I thank God for the process: for letting me know there is something I’m taking in, and it’s not conducive to growth.
We must use our spiritual filter- the Holy Spirit to lead and guide us into all peace and righteousness. We must use restraint and have self-control when it comes to the things not of God.
I end with this- if you experience inconsistency in your mood and behavior: one day you’re up, the next you’re down, take inventory of what you’re consuming. You could very well have a spiritual abscess that needs to be released; meaning, it needs to be popped. And the only One I know, meaning the only doctor I know that specializes in spiritual abscess, is Jesus! Not only does HE heal it entirely, HE also protects you from reoccurring ones.
I’m not implying to never watch the news, movies, tv shows, read posts on social media, and listen to music ever again- just be aware of what you’re taking in. Listen to spiritual news (sermons), read good news, God’s word, the bible. Pray. Watch spiritual movies and tv shows and listen to gospel and Christian music. These are the remedies that will uplift the heaviness and pop that spiritual abscess!

What Concerns Me, Concerns God; And What Concerns God, Concerns Me.

I don’t know about you, but I appreciate the times I get to drive by myself. Because it gives me alone time with Jesus, to pray, to hear Him speak to my heart; I really cherish these moments.

Yesterday, I had a meeting that was thirty minutes from the house. So, I used this quiet and alone time to talk with God, to pray to Jesus, and thank the Holy Spirit for moving on my behalf, and on the behalf of my children. I was strengthened with each minute, more and more. I was encouraged because I spoke the word of God in Jesus name and thanked the Holy Spirit for turning things around, for moving things around, for orchestrating a series of events, as my pastor would say, to fulfill God’s will.

By the way, the meeting went great!

I left, headed on the highway, and traffic was moving slow. I noticed the coolant dial was quickly rising to hot. To me it was fast. For a second, I thought, I hope this car doesn’t start smoking. My heartrate increased, and I said to myself- Oh No!
I grabbed my phone, to call my son. Because I remember a few days prior, out of the blue he asked me the last time I had a tune-up. “The car has never been tuned up” I replied. So, I thought about his timely words and wanted to call him. Maybe he could direct me on what to do in the meantime.

But right when I picked up the phone, the Holy Spirit said “Pray.” And I did. I spoke out loud: “Bring it down, Holy Spirit; bring it down, Holy Spirit; bring it down, Holy Spirit.” And the gauge quickly came down.

At the same rate it went up, was the same rate it came down.

What had just happened, called me to pray for another thirty minutes. I was reminded of the power of God. Some would conclude it as a coincidence; I conclude, it was a work, a sign, a move- a blessing from God!

As a result, I had new thoughts. For instance, it was a reminder that my concerns are God’s concerns. I meditated on that word, concern. How this word concern is similar to the word passion. It was like I was having a thought exchange with God, asking and revealing the difference between concern and passion. On that ride home, I voiced all the things in life that concern me. For some reason, it was easier for me to navigate internally, my concerns, versus what am I passionate about. If you asked me, “What is your passion?” I sometimes struggled with the answer because I wasn’t sure of its definition. I’ve heard others define passion as that thing that keeps you up at night. You go to bed thinking about it, you wake up thinking about it. Nothing really moved me like that, except for God. So, I conclude that my passion in life is God! Meaning, all things pertaining to God. And my concerns, well there are many…

I am concerned about preserving the beauty, awe and wonder of our planet. It saddens me when I see oil rigs in the ocean because I know what they’re doing- disrupting the ocean floor and penetrating a part of our planet that needs to be untouched. I drive a car that requires gas. However, at that moment, I declared that when I receive more than enough money, I will purchase a solar generated car.

All the litter I see on the roadways and highways in St. Louis are disturbing. Its more than a sore sight to see, its disrespectful to the land we live on. So, once I got home, I googled all I could find about the litter laws and who to contact. I proposed a new idea and I am confident, the Holy Spirit will make some things happen and change will occur.
Child molestation concerns me. Prevention is necessary and teaching is key. As they say, knowledge is power so I will be praying about that platform.

Single parenting, past wounds, generational curses, exposing societal and familial lies- all concern me. I will be praying about that platform as well.

Diabetes and diet concern me. More research needs to be done on the effectiveness of low carb diets in the treatment of diabetes. Low carb changed my life. And no doctor pointed me in that direction, I had to find out for myself. On the ADA (American Diabetes Association) website, they have a section for “Superfoods”: beans, fruits, sweet potatoes and whole grains. In my experience as a diabetic for thirty years, and a nurse for fifteen- these foods are not superfoods for a diabetic; they’re harmful because they raise blood glucose and require more insulin. Along with other community members, I plan on meeting with House Representative Ann Wagner, sometime in August, to discuss this concern.

In addition, I was reminded of something important out of this experience- to speak what I need and desire.

Because what concerns me, concerns God; and what concerns God, concerns me.

All in all, if that gauge never rose to hot, I wouldn’t have prayed and talked to God like I did. HE used that as an opportunity to teach me some things, to remind me of the power of prayer, to show HE is always there for me! And now I’m sharing with you.

All glory to God! Let us Bless His Holy Name!

Resting in the hands of Almighty God

Last weekend, I held a ten pound infant in my arms. We were at a church event and all the kids were having a blast! There was laughter, food, games and music. Everyone was having a good time.

Holding this baby in my arms was an important task. I had to shield him and protect him from all hurt, harm and danger- seen and unseen. I even felt compelled to protect what we heard.

The music was blaring; yet, he wasn’t bothered. Not as nearly as much as me. I thought: his ear drums are like the size of peanuts, his lungs the size of tea bags and his brain, the size of an apricot. All I wanted at that moment, was to shield this precious new child from a secular world.

Today, I reminisce on this. God feels the same way about us. He’s holding us in His hands. Wanting to shield and protect us all from the ungodly contents of this world.

So, on this day Lord God, I thank you! I thank you for new grace and new mercy on this day. I thank you for covering me. I feel your mighty, compassionate hand on me. I pray this day be a day spent, that is pleasing in your sight. I pray for the opportunity to share your goodness, to uplift and encourage whosoever is in need of your word. For all that you’ve done for me, how could I ever repay you? I love you Jesus! I love you Holy Spirit! I love you Heavenly Father! In Jesus name, I pray, Amen.

The eyes are made to see

We get what we came for-
*Matthew 6:22 “The lamp of the body is the eye. If therefore your eye is good, your whole body will be full of light.”

*A quote by Thomas Manton, “Your eyes are the guardians of your heart.”

*2 Corinthians 11:14 “And no wonder! For Satan himself transforms himself into an angel of light.”

You ever watch a horror movie and afterwards scared out of your wits, because you believed some evil force was out to get you? As an adult, you even slept with the lights on?

The word supernatural is used for good or evil. The good has the intention of blessing you in a mighty way. For instance, many prayers include the words, “May God give you supernatural insight and wisdom to see through the devil’s lies.” Then the evil has the intent of producing fear, doubt or guilt. For example, supernatural films, closely linked to paranormal, have themes of ghosts, demons, spirits…used to frighten those who watch it.

But what do we expect when we watch movies like that? The movie is intended to make us scared. And they do this in honesty. Meaning they tell us the truth about what type of movie it is, so we know its intentions before we watch it. That’s why they’re called horror and thriller. You want drama, then watch drama. You want suspense, watch suspense. You want humor, then watch comedy. You want romance, then watch romance. Certainly, you will get what you came for.

I’m always taking inventory of what I watch. Especially when my enthusiasm for purpose is dull. Because, what I see transfers information to my heart and mind. It gets downloaded there, transcribed there and ultimately gets saved to hard drive (my soul).

I have to be mindful of what I watch. Not only for my sake, but for my children. Because what I see and perceive will always affect those around me. I watched Game 3 of NBA finals last night. And I was hyped. My daughter said, “Wow mom, you must really love this game.” I’m one of those people that only watch the finals in any sport. Nonetheless, I was in awe of Steph Curry. His team-mates, Kevin Durant and Klay Thompson were out injured so the outcome relied heavily on Curry’s actions; how well he can play the game. He had the weight of Game 3 on his shoulders. His love for the game of basketball was inspiring. Just when I thought he was physically tired, he would fight to gain possession of that ball. What I was watching, impacted my mood and behavior so much, that my daughter noticed.
Today, I make the commitment to guard what I see and what my children see.

Focus on Giving What God Gives You

Human nature says: I give to you now you owe me.

God Almighty says: It brings Me glory to give you gifts that will profit you and bless others.

Question to Ponder: Are we using the gifts God so graciously gives us, to build-up others?  As Christians, we should never leave a man behind.  That’s not the path of wisdom.  

The Focused Ant

It’s something how I can be fixated on one particular thing; especially if it’s fascinating. Like, ants. Yes, the insect ants! I don’t hear what they’re saying to each other. However, by the way they move, I can sense what they’re communicating. The other day I videotaped a group of ants, attempting what I thought was the impossible. They worked to get this wasp down a crack in the pavement. Amazingly, at some points I would see the wasp shift a millimeter, but that was about it.
Fast forward to some time later, the ants were successful. But how? During my observation, they never stopped to take a break. They kept at the same pace. It was amazing. They knew exactly what to do and that was: keep working that thing. It was like they had no choice in the matter.
We’re different than the ants. In the way, we have a choice to abort the mission. We have a choice to say “Whatever- the kingdom is good. God will get the glory at a different time, or in some other way. Just not now because this is impossible and I’m tired.” But to the ants, that queen must eat to reproduce. End of story. They know nothing else. What if I had the same mentality as the ant? Just what if- I approach God’s purpose for my life with a one track mind like the ant? Of course, we’re more advanced than the ant. But just think for one minute- what if we take the same focus as the ant and surround ourselves with others that are just as focused. Surely, we can get a lot done here!